I spent the last weekend of october with a youth group in the NGO i work for. It was such a renewing experience. Not that just I whiled lazily away the hours in the resort outside of Manila. I facilitated a process which was aimed to train youth leaders to handle group discussion of issues affecting young people in their respective communities. It was refreshing because it got in touch with my own youthfulness and vitality.
Over the past few years I heard myself say, "That is not for me, I feel old for that." With that, I confined myself to activities "appropriate" to my age. And that means studying, reading, working and watching movies. It is no that there is anything wrong with these. Though I noticed how easily I got tired and moody. A little addition to my workload drives me angry. A little disturbance in my schedule make me very ill at ease.
I sometimes wonder why I have become like this.